If You Take the Whole out of the Whole
HOW CAN WE BECOME ONE WITH THE REALITY AND WHY ARE WE SEPARATE FROM IS?
The division is something that we ourselves have created. Reality has always been one; it has never known any division. All division is a mental division, a creation of our own conditioning. Reality has always been undivided, indivisible. It is still so. It has always been so, it will always be so. But through our cultivated minds, we feel it to be divided.
The moment you become whole, the moment you become aware, there is neither the individual nor the cosmic. Or, you can say that everything is the cosmic. The cosmic does not exist in opposition to the individual. Rather, all individuals dissolve in the cosmic.
HOW CAN THE COSMIC BE ACHIEVED?
By becoming aware of your fragmented mind, of your conceptions, your attitudes, your prejudices.
By becoming aware of the mind that feels, hears, chooses. When you see a flower, it is not only that the flower is there. Between you and the flower, a particular mind exists, a particular attitude about the flower exists. Otherwise there would be no barrier between you and the flower. You would be one.
You and the flower are two extremes of one existence, two ends of one single moment. If your mind is not there, your consciousness and the flowering of the flower are two extreme points of one process. But if your mind is there (as it is always there), you are not just seeing the flower. Your seeing has a projection behind it, you are seeing in terms of your own conceptions, your own likes and dislikes.
You say, "This is a rose." But there is no such thing as 'rose'. The rose itself doesn't know that it is a rose. We are the ones who have called it that. And the moment you say 'rose', everything that is associated with the word 'rose' stands between you and the particular flower in front of you.
The word has so many associations. If your culture says that a rose is beautiful, then the flower becomes beautiful. If your culture is against roses, then it becomes ugly. If your experience with roses is associated with pain with thorns, then the rose becomes one thing. If your associations are happy, then the rose becomes something different. But all the while, the rose itself remains the same. You see it with your mind. Your mind destroys that which is real and creates something imaginary, hallucinatory.
If you have no mind; if you can see the rose without your mind; if your seeing is totally innocent, completely fresh; if your seeing is not coming from the past; if you and the rose are living simultaneously in this moment - if you are without mind: just aware, just existential - then the rose is not known as something separate. Then you know it to be part and parcel of your consciousness.
Then the flowering of the rose is your own flowering; then the perfume of the rose is your own perfume; then your consciousness is the rose's consciousness.
The rose is knowing itself through you. Identification is not an act of dualism, but of total being.
Through your consciousness, the rose has come to know itself. This is the feeling! It cannot be expressed exactly, but the feeling is like this: that either you have flowered in the rose, or the rose has become conscious of itself through you.
IS THIS WHAT IS KNOWN AS 'SEEING'?
It is really seeing. It is darshan, without the mind.
THAT'S THE KIND OF THING KRISHNAMURTI IS ALWAYS SAYING.
I don't know what he says. But I say: this is seeing. Only when you are mindless is seeing there.
The mind is the destroyer, it is a destructive force.
So do not try to be whole. You cannot try. There cannot be any effort because every type of effort is the effort of one particular mind against other minds. That is why effortlessness has to be understood clearly. You cannot achieve it because every type of achievement is the longing of a particular type of mind. You can only understand it. "This is so. This is the suchness."
The mind is fragmented. The mind is not one; it is poly-psychic. You don't have a mind; you have many minds. These minds are the experiences of the past to which you have become attached, associated, to which you are clinging. Why are you clinging? Because to exist mindlessly in dangerous, to exist mindlessly is insecure, to exist mindlessly is to always be in the unknown. That is why we have made everything that has become known to us a part of our consciousness. We cling to our experiences, our knowledge, so that we don't have to move into the unknown, so that we don't have to feel insecure about what is going to happen. We are clinging to that which has already happened. These are our safety measures.
The mind that is longing for security cannot be mindless. This has to be understood. The mind that is longing for security can never be mindless because it will cling to past experiences, past knowledge, past information. You will always be living through a dead mind.
So there are three things to be understood. The first is that we do not have a single mind. We have many minds. Secondly, these minds are our past experiences. And thirdly, we cling to these multi- minds because of our fear of the unknown, because of the infinite possibilities of the future. The past is fixed because it has already happened. It is dead; you can deal with it. But you cannot deal with the future. The future is always unknown, uncharted. There are unknown, infinite possibilities about which you can never be certain.
Life means uncertainty; life means insecurity; life means to be in danger. Only a dead person is out of danger. Now he cannot become diseased, he cannot die. There is no death for him now; he is at ease. Everything has become certain. Now nothing else can happen so there is no danger.
If you understand these two things (the certainty of the past and the uncertainly of the future); if you understand that life means uncertainty, life means insecurity, life means danger, life means uncharted and unknown possibilities - if you understand this, then by and by your minds will drop, they will cease to function, and you will become one, whole. By and by, your response will become total.
This total response is religiousness. It is a total response: every moment, in every situation. Be total within, and be total without. The moment this happens, the totalness within and the totalness without become one. Then there is no barrier between you and the whole.
There can never be two perfections. The moment two perfections come close, they become one.
The wholeness is always one. There is a saying in the Upanishads: "If you take the whole out of the whole, the whole remains behind." Nothing is taken out, because you cannot take anything from the whole. Even if you take the whole, the whole remains behind. And you cannot add anything to the whole. If you add something to the whole, it will remain the same.
There is no method to become one with the whole. You are already that. All methods are to help you to understand. They are to create a situation in which you can understand yourself: your multiplicity, your poly-psychicness. When you know yourself in your totality, only then can you know what is beyond this totality. So the first thing to be seen is yourself. It you have not even seen yourself, then seeing the wholeness is not possible.
WILL I BE ABLE TO SEE THE WHOLENESS AFTER DOING MEDITATION?
Yes. It will descend on you sometimes. When you are whole, the whole will explode in you. And this will go on becoming more natural as you continue to meditate. The gaps will be less, the intervals will be less. Finally a moment of explosion will come from which there is no escape.
CAN THIS HAPPEN THROUGH WILL POWER?
Will is power; energy. There is no such thing as 'will power'. Will is power, will is energy. But by 'will' I mean the whole: Those who use the term 'will power' use it in a psychic sense. They use it to mean the power of concentration. I am not using the term in that sense. To me, 'will' means the whole.
So only God is will. We are never will; we are just desires. Will is power, without desire. It is power with no movement or, with an inner movement. It is power without direction: directionless, dimensionless.
When we say, "God is power," it does not mean that God is powerful. It means: God-power. God is the energY of the whole, the power of the whole. So when I say 'will power', it does not mean that will has power. Will is power - it is energy. You can only attain it when you have lost yourself.
While you are there, desire will be there. Your power will come from your desires. It will be created by concentration, by narrowing, by exclusion. Then you will have moments of powerlessness also.
Your potency will exist in opposition to impotency so it will come and go.
But when will comes, nothing goes. Everything is. Even passivity is powerful, even impotence becomes potency. That is why the word tao is better then the word 'will' and better than the word dharma. Tao is both death and life, both darkness and light, both potency and impotency. Only then does power become absolute.
'Will power', as it is ordinarily used, only means that power that is created by conflict, created by concentration. This is not power. It is just creating a conflict within you, and making one part of your mind in control of the other parts. A subtle energy, a subtle force, is created. You can use it, but then moments of depression, of powerlessness, will follow.
When there is no direction that you have to move toward, when you have no desires, you are power, you are energy, you are life. Then you exist without any shadows, without being followed by the opposite. That Is why it is said that God is shadowless. He IS, but there is nothing opposite to him that casts a shadow on him.