Darshan 18 October 1976

Anand means bliss and dhara means river - river of bliss. And become more and more river-like.

Never allow anything to become stagnant Never allow anything to become frozen. The moment you see that something has become frozen, do something and get out of it.... Because that frozen thing is nothing but a dead part which has no more any life. Life is always streaming. Life is always in being a river. So whenever you feel that something is becoming dead, stale, stagnant, no more flowing, there is no more movement, then whatsoever the risk, get out of it.

If it is love, get out of it. If it is meditation, get out of it - whatsoever it is. Remember only one thing - that life is in flowing. And if you can become a total flow, immediately God is there. In being a total flow, one becomes divine. And when I say in being a total flow, I mean nothing, not even this self - the idea of being myself - is there, because that too is a dead thing and stale. When you are simply a process, a tremendous movement, a continuous going and going, river-like tumbling towards the sea, rushing towards the sea to dissolve, then you are alive, and you are alive at the optimum. Less than that is never blissful. And never settle for less than that. Be a river - let that be the goal.

Prem means love and subhadra means grace. Grace in love. And let that be your very discipline.

Become more and more loving, become more and more graceful. Walk as if you are dancing; bring grace to it. Eat as if you are invited by God Himself and it is a feast. Talk to people as if you are singing to them. And then grace will arise.

Everybody is carrying within himself that fragrance, but people don't allow it The petals have to open, the heart has to bloom, and then the grace spreads. And when grace spreads, that's what prayer is.

Then you are offered to God - you have become an offering. Then your whole life becomes sacred.

And only love can bring grace. Unless you love tremendously, grace is not possible.

Whenever a person is non-loving, you will immediately see some awkwardness in him, something rough, primitive, something unrefined. When love arises in the heart everything becomes refined;

everything becomes subtle, graceful. Love brings grace, and grace gives you more opportunities to be loving. And they play upon each other. Love brings more grace, more grace brings more love, and it goes on to a very high crescendo. And the final crescendo is what God is.

God is not a person. It is your song come to its fulfillment It is your being arrived home. God is a state of tremendous contentment, of tremendous fulfillment, of a tremendous at ease. One has done whatsoever one wanted to do; one has been whatsoever one was destined to be.

[A sannyasin returning to the West, says he may continue to do medicine, but feels ambivalent about in case he causes some damage. Osho checks his energy.] Mm. . . the ambivalence is there, not because you can do any harm to anybody but because you have a very soft heart. That's why the ambivalence is there. And in fact this soft heart is needed for a medicine man. Medicine is not an ordinary profession. It is not just technology, because human beings are involved. You are not repairing mechanisms. It is not only a question of know-how; it is a deep question of love - and that's why the ambivalence is there. But it is a good indication. You should go headlong into medicine.

Only people of your type should go into medicine, because you feel you can do harm; you are afraid because something may go wrong. You are playing with human beings and their lives, and it is a complex phenomenon. Sometimes one can commit errors, and those errors can prove fatal to somebody's life. But go with deep prayer. Go with humanity, humbleness, simplicity. That's why you are feeling a little divided about whether to go into it or not. You are the right man to go into it.

People who simply go into medicine as if they are going into engineering, are not the right people to be doctors and physicians - they are the wrong people. Those who are not ambivalent are the wrong people. They don't care; they will treat human beings as mechanisms. They will operate on human beings as a motor-mechanic is doing with a car. They will not feel the spiritual presence of the patient. They will not treat the person, they will treat the symptoms. Of course they can be very certain; a technician is always certain.

But when you are involved with human beings you cannot be so certain. Hesitation is natural. One thinks twice, thrice, before doing anything, because a precious life is involved - life which we cannot produce, life which gone once is gone forever. And it is on an individual who is irreplaceable, unique, like whom has never been there, and like whom there is going to be never again. You are playing with fire! Hesitation is natural. But to decide not to go into medicine is not good.

Go into it! Go with tremendous humbleness. Have a deep reverence for the patient. And while treating him, just become a vehicle of the divine energy. Don't become a doctor. Simply become a vehicle of the healing divine energy - just instrumental. Let there be the patient - have great reverence for the patient; don't treat him like a thing - and let there be God, and with deep prayer, allow God to flow through you and reach to the patient. The patient is ill; he cannot connect with God. He has fallen far away. He has forgotten the very language of how to heal himself. He is in a desperate state. You cannot blame him; he is in a helpless state.

Somebody who is healthy can be of tremendous help if he becomes a vehicle. And if the healthy person is also a man who knows, it can be of more importance, because the divine energy can

give you only very subtle hints. They have to be decoded by you. If you know medicine, you can decode them very easily. And then you are not doing anything to the patient - it is God who is doing.

You make yourself available to God and you make all your knowledge available. It is God's healing energy in conjunction with your knowledge that helps. And it never harms; you can be harmful. So drop yourself. Let God be there. Go into medicine, and go on meditating.

And do you know that both the words come from the same root? - medicine and meditation. Yes, they come from the same root - because both are healing forces. Meditation is an inner healing force, and medicine is a healing force from the outside. In the ancient world the medicine man and the sage were not two different people. The physician and the master used to be the same person.

[The sannyasin replies: I think it's one of the things that disturbs me... What is required to be the sage?] No, no, nothing is required to be the sage. Something just has to be dropped. Nothing has to be added to you. To become a sage is via negativa. You have to simply drop a few things, that's all, and you become the sage. You are a sage burdened with too many things, that's all. Drop the things and you are the sage. The sage is not like an achievement It is just as when the room is full of furniture. When the room is too full of furniture there is no room in it. Room means space, and if you have collected all sorts of junk there and all sorts of furniture so that it is impossible even to move - it is impossible to live in it because there is no room in it - you have destroyed the room by too many things. If I say a new room is needed to live in and you ask how to create a room, I say there is no need: the room is already there. You simply discard a little junk, throw a little junk, renounce a few things, and the room will become available.

That is exactly the way of being a sage - via negativa. You negate a few things - and the most important is the ego. If you negate the ego, you are a sage. So there is nothing to be added to you. It is not that you plus something will be the sage. You minus something - the ego - and the sage happens. And with the ego many things go automatically: the anger, the violence, the aggressiveness, the possessiveness. They all disappear with the ego. They are shadows of the ego. Then you are just an emptiness. That emptiness in itself is a great physician, a great healing energy. Just by your touch, just by your presence, the patient can be healed. And if you know medicine also, you can be of great help.

My suggestion is that you go into medicine. In spite of the ambivalence, you will never repent - go.

If you don't go you will repent for your whole life and you will always, again and again, start missing it. Find out ways of learning more and more about medicine.

[A visitor says she had been practising bhakti meditation. Osho checks her energy.] A few groups will be very helpful. Energy is there but you are holding it, and you have never allowed it to have its course. You have been, rather, a sort of controller, a disciplinarian. You have been trying to remain in control - and that control is very very dangerous. All control has to be lost. One has to become possessed by the divine; it is really a possession. If you go very cleverly you will never reach. It is only for mad people who can rush into it, not caring at all about what is going to happen. It is for gamblers!

It is going to happen. Just be here, do a few groups. And what about sannyas? That will be very helpful.

[The visitor says she can't take sannyas because her teacher is the divine mother.] You can have as many teachers as you want learn from everywhere, and don't cling. One should remain always open to learn. And if one becomes closed and one feels that one has a teacher.... If you really have a teacher, why have you come to me? It is not helping you at all - otherwise why should you come?

[She replies: To learn some tantric yoga.] If your teacher is enough then there is no need to come to me. And if your teacher is not enough, then be prepared to move beyond your teacher!

This is how the mind goes on playing tricks. You go to a doctor and you say, 'I cannot take your medicine because I already have a doctor.' Then why in the first place did you bother to come? You follow me? Because if you already have a teacher and you are completely satisfied, I am not going to disturb you. Why should I disturb you? You are going perfectly well. Go with my blessings. I should not interfere at all.

But if you feel that your teacher has not fulfilled you - and I have an absolute guarantee that it has not been fulfilling, otherwise why should you be here? You should not be here! And if it has not been a fulfillment, one should be able to go beyond and one should learn more.

Learning is possible only when you are related to me, otherwise not. You can be here, you can meditate, but you will remain an outsider. And if you are not ready to move into a deeper, intimate relationship with me, then it is impossible for me to give you something of that which I can give to you. So decide about it. You can be here; you can listen to me. You can meditate, you can do few groups, but you will not be related to me.

And nothing has happened to you - that's why you are here. Maybe your teacher helped this much - that you could come to me. That's enough! Be grateful to the teacher. Always be respectfull to the teacher, but if it is not helping and the revolution is not happening, one has to find somebody else.

If it has not happened in one temple, then one has to go into another temple, because the real thing is not the temple; the real thing is the happening.

Do a few groups and pin the music group here. After the camp, you join the music group - continue the meditations, and book for hypnotherapy. Think about sannyas, mm? and whenever you have gathered courage, come back!