Darshan 8 July 1978

Deva means divine, gatya means movement - divine movement. Life is a movement, and misery arises because we don't go with the movement. Either we start clinging to the past, then we obstruct the movement; or we start planning for the future, then too we obstruct the movement. To be with the movement one needs to be without past and without future. Then one is movement; one is life and one is god. And once there is no disparity between you and life's movement, there is joy, there is bliss. The harmony between you and the great life is what bliss is.

It is a state of harmony between the part and the whole. Once we start thinking of our own directions, of our own plans and ideas, we are no more with the whole; we have started moving apart. And the farther we are from the whole, the more miserable we are; we cannot live without the whole. Misery is simply an indication that you are not in tune, that you are not in harmony, that your roots are not really in the soil, that- you are getting uprooted.

That's how the feeling of alienation comes in: one starts feeling as if one is a stranger - but we create it. We are not strangers - this life is ours, this whole existence belongs to us. But for it to belong to us we have to belong to it. There should be no disparity. We should not have our own ideas. We should simply relax with the whole, go with the whole, go with the flow.

Going with the flow is the meaning of gatya. The English word 'go' comes from the same root 'gatya.'

[A sannyasin is leaving because of his work which is playing symphonic music, but he also wants to be here. Osho checks his energy.]

You can come - there is no need... And make your music here, so you will not be leaving music; in fact, you will be coming to deeper music. Now I will be your music... Come here.

You have played the outer music and now you are ready for the inner too. And the outer has not to be renounced for the inner; the outer can be absorbed in the inner. That's my basic teaching - that whatsoever is there has to be absorbed into a higher synthesis.

So you are not leaving your music - you will be going higher and deeper into it. Whatsoever you have will be there and more shall be given to you.

So go and finish things there. Bring your instruments and come here....

[A sannyasin, who is leaving says: I want to stay open to you. Osho checks his energy.]

It will be difficult for you to remain open always and continuously. Sometimes you will be open and sometimes you will be closed. But that is nothing to be worried about. That is a rhythm, a rhythm just like day and night. Just as in the day the flowers open and in the night they close, just like inhalation, exhalation, you inhale and then you exhale, so you cannot remain open twenty-four hours a day.

And don't long for it, otherwise that will create misery and in misery you will become more closed.

Misery always closes.

So a deep understanding is needed about this rhythm. One opens, closes, opens, closes; one has to accept it. In fact they are hot opposites but complementaries. The closing prepares you to open again, and the opening prepares you to close again, otherwise you will be tired. Just think of eyes unblinking: for how long can you do that? You will become tired. Your eyes go on working because they go on blinking. We don't pay any attention - they are constantly closing, opening. That keeps them fresh, keeps them young, untired, vital.

And it is a constant process of cleansing too. When you are open some dust gathers, tiredness settles, you become weary. When one is closed, in rest, silence, one becomes revitalised. Yes, there is a kind of opening that remains twenty-four hours a day too, but that is not part of the mind - that is something beyond the mind.

Right now you will have to settle with your mind, then one day that too will become possible, but that is transcendental. Then there is no rhythm: it is always the same. You cannot even call it opening - it is meaningless to call it openness because there is no closing any more. It is a totally different kind of phenomenon. One simply is - neither open nor closed. That too comes, that will come, but don't long for it. Right now what is needed, what is a must, is to accept the rhythm of the positive and the negative.

Sometimes you will find yourself very close to me and sometimes you will find yourself very far away. Sometimes you will be coming, coming, coming, so close and so happy and so blissful, and sometimes you will become so far away, so withdrawn, so unhappy about it. But once you understand that this is a rhythm, a natural phenomenon of the mind, then there is no problem in it - you relax.

One thing more to be remembered: never decide anything when you are in the negative phase, that's all. Never decide anything when you are in the negative phase and then you will never repent; there will be no need to repent.

Decision has to be made only when one is in a positive phase. Mm, just as you decide in the day not in the night when you are deep asleep - then you don't decide - always decide when you are happy, open, flowing. Then your decisions will be right; you cannot decide wrongly, it is impossible to be wrong in those moments. When you are negative, withdrawn, sad, depressed, remember only one thing: no decision. Let this pass. Accept it - it is part of nature - but don't decide in these moments.

The lucky people are those who have learned the knack of deciding in the positive moment, and unlucky are those who have somehow fallen into the trap of deciding in the negative moment. That is the only difference between the lucky and the unlucky. And anybody can become lucky. It is just a change, just a small change. It is a very little difference, but it makes a lot of difference in life - the difference that makes the difference.

[A sannyasin says her husband wants to tour India, and though she felt to stay here, she also feels to accompany him.]

You go with him... you go with him. But sometimes come here to stay for a few weeks - something can be done. And come alone, that will be better, because when you come with your husband, wife, children, it is very difficult to be free... and to be open and to be ready to change, to go into things. It is diff1cult, because all the associations and all the thoughts and the entanglements are there, and you have to take care - if he wants to travel you have to go with him and travel. It would have been far better for you to be here and travel inwards. So next time when you come, come alone....

If you can manage to be here on the twentieth, [guru purnima festival] it will be good. Mm, because sannyasins will be gathering from all over the world and it will be beautiful to participate in their joy and celebration. If it is possible and it doesn't make much trouble for your husband, then try. And he will also enjoy, if he can come. If it is easily possible, otherwise don't bother, mm? Just for one day, the twentieth, be here from the morning to the night and then you can go back.

I can understand your difficulty - I can see the difficulty.

[Osho gives another sannyasin an 'energy darshan' after which he says the energy is going well - just a little more flow is needed.]

You are still controlling, and all control is a hindrance to growth. Be in uncontrol. Be in a let-go so god can take possession of you. Unless you leave control, he never takes control. If you are in control he keeps aloof. When you leave all control, he immediately takes control. He becomes a help only to those who are utterly helpless, to those who are just like small babies. Then god is a mother.

So become very very helpless, with no control, with nobody to control. And then you will be surprised: he has taken all in his hands. And then life has a splendour. Then each moment is such a joy that one cannot even dream of that joy, one cannot imagine - it is unimaginable. But it happens only when you disappear, and you disappear when your control disappears.

So in the coming three groups leave all control. Particularly in Tantra, be just pure energy - let things happen. And after Tantra remind me again. But things are moving.... Good!